Years ago, I attended an Egyptian workshop and had an experience I would like to share. This experience opened a pandora’s box that many of us are quite familiar.
In the gathering room, a violinist warmed up the crowd as we waited for our speaker to begin. I felt blessed to sit back and listen to his playing, not having to do anything else for a change.
I closely observed how this violinist used his whole body to channel his sound. He used his feet to help record certain beats on his equipment and then he played and added to what he recorded.
He was one person who became a whole orchestra within seconds.
His legs tightened and held certain positions as he channeled his esoteric melodies. He used his core to create just the right momentum with every draw of his bow across the strings. His hands melded with the instrument and I could no longer tell where the violin ended and he began. I even imagined his long wavy hair picking up a conductor’s wand and waving it to and fro. He was quite the vortex of sound.
Before he began his next song, he made a statement that stayed with me. He said, “Sorry it’s (the music) not more Egyptian.” He apologized for what he thought was not good enough. The crowd begged to differ. I begged to differ. If he had played Egyptian music, we wouldn’t have witnessed what we had. After we all reassured him that he was playing brilliantly, he began his next piece.
As for you, the reader, how many times do you find yourself apologizing for who you are? Why do you feel you have to apologize? Though I cannot answer for you, take a moment and replay some of your conversations throughout the day today. Did you begin any of them with “I’m sorry,” or “Sorry?” What do you feel sorry for or do you use it out of habit?
To stand in your power and voice yourself is a very important aspect of who you are.
Whether you say the word sorry out of habit or not, it can weaken your vibration and give others the impression that you have no authority. Save this apologetic word for when it’s really necessary and you will only strengthen it and your character.
Since this Egyptian workshop, I’ve taken to heart the string of pointless apologies I’ve made. I’ve worked quite hard to rid myself of this habit and degrading pattern.
Here’s a new pattern I found very helpful if you’d like to try and experiment. From now on, instead of using the word “Sorry” use phrases like “Excuse me,” “Pardon me,” or “Can you repeat yourself?” Remember that what you have to say is important, regardless of the topic you choose to share. Self expression is one of the ways you connect with this world. To allow yourself the right of expression is to allow yourself to be who you are. Always remember you are a voice in this world and never an apology.
Preaching From My Soapbox,
Photo Credit: Niek Verlaan